B!ldungsroman

taboop:

iridessence:

the devil flew out of her mouth for trying to be racist

send an ambulance I’m dying

(Source: maplesuhtori)

nylonespanol:

Le Butcherettes Teri Gender bender y Lia Braswell están de regreso con un segundo disco, Cry is for The Flies, un disco lleno de tintes muy al estilo de este dueto de Mexicano-Estadounidense; garage punk recordando por momentos a Black Flag (Henry Rollins prestó su voz para un track de este…

bravadough:

I went on an OKC date
Traveled 40 minutes to see me
She’s new here
She talks so fast
Even while smoking
We played pool
She kicked my ass
And talked so fast
I had a drink
Obama was on TV
I took her for a walk
She didn’t notice any sights
Except for once, when she stopped talking

streamca:

Roseau - Dominica

nosleeptilbushwick:

this is absolutely incredible

(Source: sizvideos)

Literally just got out the shower at my old school’s gym and sat on the trunk of my car/temp home, imagining myself getting interviewed by an indie music magazine. Pretty sure I went insane for a minute :

"So I heard you took showers at your alma mater’s gym when you were homeless?"
“Yeah, they were better than any showers I’ve ever taken. ”
“Did you work out a lot?”
“No. I stopped when I was like 19 or 20. It was like ‘Okay, I have a 5 pack. I did it. Now I don’t care anymore. Goal accomplished. On to the next thing in life.’ But I still just wanted to be ‘healthy’. “
” 5-pack?”
“Yeah… The ratio of fat-to-muscle composition and effort it takes to have a 6 pack was too much. I didn’t have the patience nor interest. I’m only motivated to look hot in a relationship. I just want to please the partner who decides to see past that stuff so there’s more chance that they can see past it again when I’m old and smelly and wrinkly. Stupidly one of the reasons I stopped working out was from the increase of attention I received. Should’ve just worn baggy clothes… Backwards logic. It’s kinda needy to some people but neediness has gotten me to where I am, even though I sadly destroyed those reservoirs… I miss them. ”
” Sounds like you have abandonment issues? “
” Not that I know of. Apparently I’m just a people-pleaser though. I’m sure it comes off in my music. “
“It sure does… ”
[laughs] “Yeah, I get really annoyed with myself without validation of success outside myself. The more people that don’t relate to my music, the more and more I feel like an alien. Or that I just suck.” [laughs]
“Have you been to therapy for that or something? ”
” Yeah. My therapists have told me that I care too much about what people think. But like, I know that if someone doesn’t like my music, even though I write for mass connection because that is where my heart is, I can still tell myself that it’s also not for everyone. Have you been to therapy? “
” Yeah. “
[laughs again]
” Why is that funny? “
(classy finish)
” I’m just thinking of the amount of people judging us right now and wondering WHY DID PETE GO TO THERAPY MULTIPLE TIMES OH MY GOD HE’S CRAZY. It only used to happen just because I couldn’t please someone I loved. And that’s pretty human in my opinion. Now I go to therapy just because I have too much attention and I don’t know how to hide from it or what to do with it. “

I learned my neediness from a needy person. I wish I knew that from the start.

I need help. Who wants to talk to me?

indypendent-thinking:

(via Drummerworld: Karen Carpenter)

"Abuse can have a confusing. hurtful. frightening effect which makes you feel emotionally unsafe. You may begin to doubt yourself, your senses, your opinions, memories, beliefs, feelings, abilities and judgment. You may begin to express your opinions less and less freely and find yourself doubting your sense of reality. You are likely to feel vulnerable, insecure, increasingly trapped and powerless. This may lead you to become defensive and increasingly depressed.

Abuse victims often find themselves “walking on eggshells” around the abuser, hyper vigilant and afraid of when - and how - to say something.

You may find yourself constantly on your “best” behavior around an abuser, unable to relax or enjoy the moment because you are always anticipating the worst. Even when the abuser is in a good mood, you are likely to keep waiting for “the other shoe to drop”.

You may also begin to blame yourself for their bad mood, behaviors or actions and hope things will change, especially through your own love and understanding.

People who are abused often long for the nicer, caring side of their partner, family member, friend, boss or co-worker to come back. You may find yourself making excuses for their bad behavior and choosing to focus mainly on getting them back into their good behavior state.”

 

If a person is policing you thoughts - we recommend doing what you can to be who you are, think what you want and believe and feel what you feel and believe what you believe. You can’t easily change what you think, feel and believe and you don’t owe anybody an explanation for how you think, feel or believe. We are accountable for our behaviors - not our thoughts.

New sounds:

dynastylnoire:

stair-diving-with-hayes:

Ladies and Gentleman, the man that will be in history books. He was throwing the burning tear gas. Not to the cops but away from the children protesting. In his American Shirt and bag of chips. Check his twitter.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOST

alligator-tears-run-over-you:

carlboygenius:

Rainbows: with Tornado & Lightning

The gays are angry